The Woman Behind the Illustration…

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The Creator and Mastermind behind Confessions of a Serial Dater in LA…

When I first started this blog I wasn’t sure if I wanted people to know who I really was.  So I had an illustration created so I could write freely.  I think it was fear that people wouldn’t like my writing, fear of being exposed, fear of people knowing my business, and fear of getting “found out.”   Well… I no longer live in fear.  I am all about endless possibilities and ready to take on the world as ME!  It’s been a fun, insightful, self reflective 2 1/2 year journey.  And your support and loyalty has made this blog an overnight success.  It’s nice to know you’re not alone in your dating victories, disappointments, insecurities, uncertainties, hopefulness, and successes.  I hope reading this blog has made your journey a little easier no matter what dating/relationship stage you are currently experiencing.

I have decided to emerge from my Illustration and let the world see me.  Over the next few weeks I will be re-vamping this website.  And you will love it!  I wanted to make sure my loyal readers had a chance to see there is actually a real person behind the illustration.  Meet the Creator and Mastermind behind the hit blog Confessions of a Serial Dater in LA…  Monique Kelley also known as…ME!

Check out my video below.  I will still be bringing you Confessions as I revamp the site.  But Summertime is around the corner!  New season.. New beginnings… New Confessions!

 

 

 

Monique K.Bradley

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30 Is NOT The New 20… Part 1

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Gino was a notorious for being a ruthless doorman. We had witnessed Gino play a firsthand role in lowering many 20 something’s self esteem by not letting them into a hot spot because they were either too fat, too homely, or he was just in a bad mood. And the guys had it worse. If you weren’t a recognizable actor, rapper, or athlete, you would need to have some money to spend to get a table.

As you might have guessed most of my weeknights are spent going to client dinners for work or network mixers.  It is the story of my life.  This week was no different than most.  I worked a full day and headed over to downtown LA to the City Club for yet another networking mixer.  Most normal folks would have listened to their body and took their asses home and had a relaxing evening on the couch.  After my vow to no longer succumb to FOMO (fear of missing out) I recently started declining these invitations.  However, this was something different than the usual mixers I attended so I decided to follow my first notion and go.  Upon arriving to the City Club the grouchy spirit I had most of the day was lifted by the beautiful 360 view of the city of LA.  I forgot what beautiful views this venue had.  There’s nothing like being high up and taking in what made me fall in love with this city.  I made my rounds around the event, exchanged business cards, gave my 2 minute pitch speech on what I did and how much I loved my job… blah… blah… blah…  I finally had a second to order a glass of wine from the bar and I took a second to go over to one of the windows and actually enjoy the view of the city.  The sun had gone down and the sparkling lights looked like diamonds.  Awwww… the feeling of endless possibilities.  Sometimes in life you need to take a moment to stop and take things in instead of reaching for your cell phone to respond to an email or taking a picture to post on your social media.  And that’s exactly what I did.  I made a conscious effort to take a deep breath, enjoy my Sauvignon Blanc and look out at the city that had become my lover over the last 15 years.

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Upon arriving to the City Club my grouchy spirit I had most of the day was uplifted by the beautiful 360 view of the city of LA. I forgot what beautiful views this venue had. There’s nothing like being high up and taking in what made me fall in love with this city.

I was enjoying my few minutes to myself when I felt a tap on my shoulder.  I turned around and there was my home girl from back in the day.  It had been a good 5 ½ years since I had seen her.  Tanya and I met at a party shortly after I moved to LA.  And from there we both had a second job of hitting up all the hot parties back in the day.  Not a real second job.  But I would leave work, head home, and change to go out and dance the night away.  We literally partied 4 nights of the week.  I would be out until 3am and wake up the next morning at 7:30 for work and not miss a beat.  There is no way I would even attempt that now.  I know my limits!  But back then there was no stopping us.  The highlight of course was The Garden of Eden on Sunday Nights and The Gate on Thursday night.  We knew we had arrived when we finally knew the doormen at the clubs and would just walk up and they would open the ropes to let us in with no questions asked. And then when Gino knew our names and would show us love as well, our young foolish 20 year old selves thought we had hit the social city jackpot!  How could we not?  Gino was a notorious for being a ruthless doorman.  He had no filter and would tell you straight up “You’re not getting in this club.”  We had witnessed Gino play a firsthand role in lowering many 20 something’s self esteem by not letting them into a hot spot because they were either too fat, too homely, or he was just in a bad mood.  And the guys had it worse.  If you weren’t a recognizable actor, rapper, or athlete, you would need to have some money to spend to get a table.  And when I say money, I’m not talking a few hundred dollars.  I had seen guys pay $1000+ just to get a table to get into the club.  If you were a guy who didn’t have money, status, or notoriety Gino would play the fuck out of you.  I’m surprised Gino never got knocked out.  He was downright evil when it came to who he let into the clubs.  His job was to make sure the club maintained the reputation for being the hottest party with a very select group of people that were granted access.  Luckily Tanya and I had made it on his good side and had the opportunity to have access to all the hot parties without any questions asked.  Looking back on it now, it was so damn silly.  Gino was a doorman!  His job was literally to pick and choose who gets into a club and open and close a red carpet.  Guys actually got paid to do this!  And the only reason why they were able to experience any power was because young 20 year olds allowed them to have that power.  Hind sight… hind sight…

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I would leave work, head home, and change to go out and dance the night away. We literally partied 4 nights of the week. The highlight of course was The Garden of Eden on Sunday Nights and The Gate on Thursday night.

So there was me and Tanya, two former party girls turned executives.  How the tides have turned.  We had a good laugh about the good old days and we promised to get together for a drink and reminisce about those times.  The last time Tanya and I hung out was shortly after I separated from my ex.  We went to The Garden Of Eden on a Sunday.  I thought it would be fun to go back to my pre-marital life.  I thought I could pick up where I left off and enjoy the clubs like I used to.  But when we arrived to the club all I saw was a bunch of over exposed breasts, too tight clothing, overly made-up faces, and long weaves.  You knew the moment an athlete walked into the club, because an area that was once crowded with people dancing would clear up and you would see a majority of the girls placing themselves in eye sight of one of the athletes with a “pick me” look.  It was downright pathetic and obvious.  I tried to order a glass of wine but all they had was White Zinfandel.  That was like drinking the Kool Aid of wines.  Back in the day when I used to frequent the clubs my drink of choice was an “Adios Motherfucker.”  Since I wasn’t making money back then that drink was one that could get my nice and tipsy after a few sips.

It was still the same scene.  Everything was still the same.  But what changed was I was the 30+ bitch in the club!  It didn’t feel right.  It wasn’t exciting.  That’s when it hit me.  That life was no longer who I was.  I enjoyed every minute of it in my 20’s.  That’s what you’re supposed to do in your 20’s.  And there wasn’t judgment on those young girls who were doing exactly what they were supposed to do at that age.  Live it up and have fun so they could one day have fun “Remember when…” stories to tell and laugh about just like Tanya and I had.  I had zero regrets.

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It was still the same scene. Everything was still the same. But what changed was I was the 30+ bitch in the club! It didn’t feel right. It wasn’t exciting.

 

But fast forwarding to that time after the ending of my marriage, I was on a different journey.  The life I had before marriage was no longer who I was.  The person I was when I was married was never who I was or what I was supposed to be.  The woman I was in my 20’s had evolved.  The things that used to make me happy were no longer the same.  I was now a woman in my 30’s and the 20 year girl I was had grown up.  I had no idea who the hell I was at that time.  I was so confused.  The ending of the marriage and the beginning of the unknown is a scary freaking thing. It was at that moment my journey to self discovery began.  To be completely honest the journey took some years.  It took me a while to find myself.  Realizing you are no longer the person you once were, but not yet the women you are supposed to be can be downright confusing.  And I was at that point.  I was starting over and the evolution of Me began.

So here I am.  Almost 6 years later.  In a space of knowing who I am.  It doesn’t mean that there aren’t times when the road is rough or I have confusion.  But I know who I am and I am okay with it.  I know what I need and desire and don’t compromise on it.  I think back on to my 20’s fondly.  It was a great ride and I wouldn’t change a thing.  Well… maybe some of the outfits and the time I had a weave that came down to the middle of my back…  Lawd have mercy!  I appreciate the journey.  I recognize I wouldn’t be Me had I not gone through that experience.  Because 30 is not the new 20 what would my 35+ self now tell the girl I was in my 20’s after experiencing life’s ups and downs and growth?   Hmmmmmm….

To be continued…

Monique K.Bradley

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Cocktails and Confessions… Coming Soon!!!!

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I Want… I Need… It Would Be Nice to Have

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I am about to go there. I am about to confess something that most single, independent women, in their 30’s and up will never say out loud because some woman somewhere in the world made these statements taboo for single women.

I am about to go there.  I am about to confess something that most single, independent women, in their 30’s and up will never say out loud because some woman somewhere in the world made these statements taboo for single women.  More than likely this is a woman who either never really had to date as a grown women in her 30’s and up.  More than likely she met her husband in college and got married shortly after graduation and has watched dating from an audience perspective and hasn’t really lived it.  OR it is a woman who is in a relationship or newly married and has what I call Newlywed amnesia and forgot about the game called dating.  OR it is a woman who is extremely bitter and in the process of a divorce or a bad breakup and is at the anger stage.  OR is a women who has read A LOT of Marianne Williamson books (who by the way is one of my favorite authors) and is taking some of what she said out of context.  But I feel the need to break this stigma.  It is okay to say…

I want… A Man…

I need… A Man…

It would be nice to have… A Man.

Oh shit!  Let me take a moment to pause for all the cynics, all the female feminists.  Go ahead, throw apples, oranges, bananas or whatever you need to throw at the screen right now.  But let me break this down so you can fully understand what I am trying to say.  You can choose to agree, disagree, but I am just being real.  I get so tired of women lying to themselves about the desires of their heart because of the fear of how it sounds.  The fear they sound like weak women who can’t take care of themselves.  The fear of looking desperate or even the fear of coming off as a woman who is too needy.  There is nothing wrong with admitting to yourself your desires when it comes to men, relationships, and dating.

I WANT A MAN…

Being single is fun.  You can come and go as you please.  You can sleep in the middle of your bed; you have control of the remote control.  The best part about being single, when you really are truly happy is dating Yourself.  What I did in the past was try out new recipes.  I would make dinners as if I was in a relationship to practice for the real thing.  I would make sure I took myself out on dates.  Not with a big group of girlfriends just you by yourself.  Even if it’s going to your favorite neighborhood bar or coffee shop after work and sitting by yourself.   Or you can even go bigger than that.  I once took myself on a trip to Hawaii.  Yes I did!   All by myself!  I would wake up in the morning, mediate and journal by the ocean.  I would sit by the pool most of the day reading Fifty Shades of Grey (don’t judge but I think I read all three books during that vacation).  In the evening I would take myself out to a fabulous dinner.  Or go to the spa.  It was so freeing.   I say all this to say, that as much as I enjoyed being single I still recognized I had to get out there.  Sitting at home on my couch thinking that I would meet someone was just plain silly.  Making the excuse that you don’t want a relationship because you are focused on your career is a defense mechanism if you are 35+.  One of my favorite phrases is “In addition to…”  Admitting you want a relationship does not translate to meaning you do not like your life, or you are not happy with where you are.  It’s simply saying out loud that you are looking forward to a partner that you can share your life with.  It doesn’t make you a weak co-dependent woman!

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I once took myself on a trip to Hawaii. Yes I did! All by myself! I would wake up in the morning, mediate and journal by the ocean.

 

I also understand the importance of making sure you get with the right person.  When I walk into my home it is peaceful, the energy is calm, and it is my oasis.  I currently have an amazing life and I recognize that anyone I allow to come into my life has to enhance it.  I couldn’t be in a situation where I allow someone to disrupt the beauty of my life and the calm of my home.  So saying you want a man doesn’t mean you are settling for some bullshit and will take anything that comes just to say you have a man.  It is simply acknowledging that you are at a point in your life where you have worked on yourself, you have acknowledged where you are, you are very clear on your negotiables and your non-negotaibles, and you WANT someone in your life that you two can come together and build a life as partners, lovers, friends, confidants, etc.

Admitting out loud that you want a man doesn’t make you desperate.  It also doesn’t mean that’s all you want out of life.  Don’t forget my catch phrase… “IN ADDITION TO…  I believe it puts  the wheels in motion.

 

I NEED A MAN…

This one will probably send some women over the edge.  And before you call Oprah on me and get me kicked out of the Intelligent Independent Spiritual Woman movement.  Once again let me explain.  Let’s face it… There are some things that you need a man for.  There are no ifs, ands, or buts about it.  You know I do not go into detail about my personal sex life.  Because it’s really none of anyone’s business and there is a certain line that even this blog won’t cross.  But I get so sick and tired of women talking about their battery operated devices.  If that’s your thing, that’s your thing.  I know Kandi Buress from Real Housewives of Atlanta fame has made a lucrative business out of selling Bedroom Kandi products.  And hey, if that’s your thing, that’s your thing.  But battery operated devices can’t kiss you back, battery operated devices can’t hold you at night in their nook, battery operated devices can’t give you pillow talk.  There are certain things you need a man for.  That’s just a fact!  And you can pretend that your battery operated devices are doing the trick, but if you had a choice between a battery operated device and a real man what would you choose?

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Battery operated devices can’t kiss you back, battery operated devices can’t hold you at night in their nook, battery operated devices can’t give you pillow talk. There are certain things you need a man for. That’s just a fact!

 

I happen to have an office with a balcony (one of the benefits of hard work paying off).  Last week while on a conference call a Raven flew onto the balcony with a dead squirrel in its mouth.  The damn thing was tearing into it like it was his last supper.  I banged on the window to try to get it to go away and it kind of looked up at me and rolled its eyes and continued feasting on this dead squirrel.  I was disgusted.  I went out to my office freaked out and two of my male colleagues went onto the balcony and shooed the Raven away.  Then one of the male custodians came and cleaned up the bloody mess that was left behind.  Yes, a woman could have done the same thing.  But there are certain things that you just gotta admit you need a man for.

When I need to move around heavy furniture, or have things done around my house.  I NEED A MAN.  Yes I said it, I ain’t taking it back!  I’m not ashamed to say it out loud.  Notice I am not saying my life isn’t complete without a man.  I am not saying I need a man to survive.  But what I am saying is there are certain things in life you NEED a man for.  Is that a bad thing to admit?  Ummm no!  I have a feeling men like to feel needed.  Perhaps us modern women have been so used to trying to do it all on our own and be Superwoman we forgot that men have feelings.  And it’s okay to make them feel needed.  To stroke their egos.  To allow them to rescue you every once in awhile.  Once again, I am not saying you need a man to be complete.  This post is for women who are whole and ready for a relationship.

 

IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE A MAN….

I am not suggesting your world should revolve around a man or finding a man. But I think women have stopped being vulnerable and open.  Some of us have put up a brick wall around our hearts and our emotions to prevent ourselves from being hurt.  Some of us have major defense mechanisms up.  Understandably so!  You reach a point where you get tired of hurt after hurt and disappointment after disappointment.  You get tired to getting excited and hopeful only to find out a few weeks in that the man you were excited about isn’t who you thought he was.  It fucking sucks!  However, just because you have been hurt in the past (we all have) doesn’t mean you shut yourself down.  It doesn’t mean you LIE to yourself and do not admit it would be nice to have a man in your life.  There is something so nice when you meet the right man for you and have the chance to experience falling in love, being adored, and meeting YOUR man.  There is something so nice about that last call of the day.. Meeting the man that gives you butterflies.. meeting a man who supports you in your dreams… meeting a man who is honest about who he is and what he is looking for… meeting a man who isn’t afraid to shout on top of a mountain THIS IS MY WOMAN… Meeting a man whose touch calms you and makes you feel safe… meeting a man who will protect you and your heart…  We are not meant to go through this world alone.

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Some of us have put up a brick wall around our hearts and our emotions to prevent ourselves from being hurt. Some of us have major defense mechanisms up. Understandably so! You reach a point where you get tired of hurt after hurt and disappointment after disappointment. You get tired to getting excited and hopeful only to find out a few weeks/months in that the man you were excited about isn’t who you thought he was. It fucking sucks! However, just because you have been hurt in the past (we all have) doesn’t mean you shut yourself down.

 

Ladies- it’s okay to admit your desire for a relationship.  It doesn’t make you weak, desperate, or needy.  It doesn’t mean that your life is not full.  It doesn’t mean that you’re not independent.  All I ask is that you are honest with yourself about what you need and remove the worry of what it sounds like.  Once again I am not saying your life isn’t complete without a man, or your life has no meaning without a man, or you can’t function without a man, or you need a man to be successful in life.  Please do not get confused with the message.  I am talking about when you are truly whole and in a place in your life where you can receive the right relationship because you have done the work on yourself.  Once you reach that point in life it is okay to say I Want… I Need… It would be nice to have…  Manifest your desires!

 

Monique K.Bradley

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Cocktails… Confessions… And Concessions?

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Cocktails… Confessions… And Concessions?

Before I revamped my site, I figured I would give my readers one last dating epiphany, lesson, observation for old time’s sake.  Enjoy!

Unlike most college students who spent their time sowing their royal oats and kicking it.  I met my college sweetheart my second day of college and I was with him until six months after graduation.  Yes… I was booed up my entire 4 years of college!  Did you think I was always a serial dater?!  LOL!  I do not regret this decision for one second.  My college sweetheart was a great guy and he set the bar high for what I expected out of my relationships and dating.  And I won’t go into details regarding the break up but I have nothing but great things to say about him.  He is one of the coolest guys I know.  I look back on those times fondly.

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Do you remember those days before you had major baggage, divorces, kids, heartbreaks, and disappointments? I miss those days of innocence. Those days where the only expectation you had about dating was a good outcome. Those days when both of you came with a clean slate? Because I had such a great first experience with my first true love at Hampton University my dating expectations were high…

 

Do you remember those days before you had major baggage, divorces, kids, heartbreaks, and disappointments?  I miss those days of innocence.  Those days where the only expectation you had about dating was a good outcome.  Those days when both of you came with a clean slate?  Can we have a moment of silence as we reminisce about those days…  Woosa….

Because I had such a great first experience with my first true love, when we broke up I was new to the single scene.  Since I hadn’t experienced the ups and downs of dating while at Hampton University, I ended having a late start to the game.    I was no longer a college student dating with the security of being on campus.  I was now officially living in Los Angeles, and dating.  It was exciting.  It was also very convenient.  To be honest, I was BROKE back then!  I was pursuing acting and my funds weren’t just low, they were non-existent.  I went on dates so I could eat and drink.  I know I am not the only woman who was guilty of this back in their twenties.  I am just woman enough to admit it.  LOL!  However, my expectations were high and I didn’t put up with a lot of shit.  I generally believed that most guys were decent until proven foolish.

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To be honest, I was BROKE back then! I was pursuing acting and my funds weren’t just low, they were non-existent. I went on dates so I could eat and drink. I know I am not the only woman who was guilty of this back in their twenties. I am just woman enough to admit it.

 

In my twenties I had a laundry list of what I expected from a guy.  What I would and would not settle for.  Some of the things on my list (mind you the total number of things on the list added up to be 52) included:

  • No kids/ baby mommas
  • Must have a career
  • Must kiss with his eyes closed (don’t judge my 20’s ignorance)
  • Must wear a suit to work (I know major side eye)
  • Must be over 6’3
  • Must have college degree
  • No roommates

Then I got married to a man that fit “the list” and we already know how that ended.  Then you take time to re-evaluate the bullshit you had on the list.  Just because someone seems great on paper does not mean that they are great for you.  You also realize relationships aren’t based on a list, but instead on things that are important to you, your non-negotiables.  And clearly with life things that were important to me changed and I had a better understanding of what I needed out of relationships.

  • Must be a good communicator
  • Must be honest/loyal
  • Must love unconditionally
  • Must be spiritual not religious
  • If he has children should be from a former marriage or not have multiple baby mammas
  • Should have had a significant relationship/marriage at some point
  • Supportive of my career and aspirations
  • Is a team player

I also learned you can’t be married to the list.  You have to make concessions from time to time and be open.  As you continue to date things are very different when you hit your 30’s/40’s.  And a lot of it is because you are no longer college kids navigating relationships on campus…  Or a young 20 year old dating fresh out of college, here’s an exercise… Sit with a group of ladies in their 20’s and hear their experiences and thoughts about dating.  You will certainly see a lot of yourself in them.  There is a certain amount of them thinking they know it all.  They will even try to guide you on what to do when it comes to dating.  And you have to embrace it with love.  Remember what you were like in your 20’s.  It’s not a dig on my younger loyal readers.  It’s just a reality.

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I also learned you can’t be married to the list. You have to make concessions from time to time and be open.

 

The fact is as you get older things change and you have to make allowances in order to be open.  Life experiences force you to have to look at things differently.  You are no longer married to a list.  Instead you try to be open, and learn from your experiences.  You begin to make concessions.   You go with the “feeling” the “connection” the “strong vibe” you feel with a man.  And trust me, it is so damn refreshing to meet a man and realize that those feelings you thought were buried deep down inside or even the “connection” you have heard others speak of but after one dating disaster after another you feel like that feeling is not in your DNA, so when you meet a man, and he literally sweeps you off your feet.  He opens you up to become vulnerable and feel safe with him.  He looks you in your eyes and you feel as though he is staring into your soul.  When his phone number flashes on the screen you find yourself smiling in the same way you did when you were a young college student without baggage.  You allow your walls to come down.  Because you have finally connected with someone in a way that is so refreshing!  Can I get an AMEM ladies?!

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You go with the “feeling” the “connection” the “strong vibe” you feel with a man. And trust me, it is so damn refreshing to meet a man and realize that those feelings you thought were buried deep down inside or even the “connection” you have heard others speak of but after one dating disaster after another you feel like that feeling is not in your DNA, so when you meet a man, and he literally sweeps you off your feet.

 

One of two things happen, you realize that this is IT!  You have finally connected with a man on a level that feels so grown.  It is unlike anything you have ever experienced.  It feels so invigorating.  It’s the holy grail of dating. And isn’t that the best feeling?  Experiencing meeting your true soulmate for all the right reasons.

But then there is the other side…  You think that you have met a man who is grown and honest.  Interestingly enough men are very “honest” these days about their various situations and what they have going on in their life.  I suspect some men use the “blatant honesty” to cover themselves for all the bullshit they have going on.  It is their way of alleviating their guilt for being shady as hell!  And it’s easy to be seduced by the “brutal honesty.”  So much so, you begin to make major concessions for the foolery.  “Honesty” is a seductive foreplay when you have a man who is everything you ever dreamt of.  You begin to make concessions for the bullshit.  You put aside your needs and desires because he is being “honest.”  He tells you everything that is going on in his life.  All the craziness and the bullshit, it serves as a way to cover his bases.  And because the bullshit is under the guise of “I’m just being honest.”  You begin to make concessions.  You begin to second guess all of the shit that you are looking for and what is important in a relationship because you are blinded by “the honesty” and suddenly you can find yourself scrambled in the middle of some bullshit.  When you hit a certain age in Singledom it is so easy to start putting aside things that are important to you.  You think that you are being unreasonable.  Hell… you even have folks around who tell you need to let go of certain expectations.  Here’s the famous line “How has that worked for you so far?”  And you are left sitting in a dizzy state wondering… “Am I expecting too much?  I am no longer the college freshman; I am a grown ass woman and I need to make more concessions.”  And while I completely agree that you cannot be married to a list of expectations… I also do not want my members of Singledom who are in their 30’s and 40’s to think that they should let go of their core values when it comes to dating.  It is so damn tempting to do so.  You can meet a man who fits all of your physical, mental, emotional criteria but at the end of the day isn’t available and is feeding you bullshit “honesty” to make himself feel better and alleviate his own damn guilt so he can say, “I was HONEST with her about my situation.”

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You can meet a man who fits all of your physical, mental, emotional criteria but at the end of the day isn’t available and is feeding you bullshit “honesty” to make himself feel better and alleviate his own damn guilt so he can say, “I was HONEST with her about my situation.”

 

And you can really believe that you won’t find better.  Or the connection you have with this man is something that you will never experience again.  Would you believe there are women out here that are actually begging men to stay with them?  And accepting CRUMBS?!  They will be in a relationship with a man who CLEARLY does not have the same strong feelings for them and think they can fuck them, feed them, and force them into the relationship they want.  Talk about poster women for low self esteem!  And they are fucking it up for the rest of us who actually have standards and expectations.  When you let a man know what works for you they are thrown off because they have been able to get away with running shit with other women who allow them to just shit on them.  Note to these women:  Get standards and stop fucking it up for women who actually have self esteem and standards.  Begging a man to stay with you is not going to make him love you or decide to be in a committed relationship with you!  I am not coming from a place of judgment but concern.  I get so frustrated with men who have been allowed to get away with treating women any old way, that when they finally meet a woman who isn’t willing to put up with taking crumbs they don’t know how to handle it.  To all you nosy men out there reading this blog who actually have the audacity to ask a woman to compromise who they are and their needs for your own selfishness, ask yourself this question:  Would you want your mother, sister, or daughters to make concessions that compromise who they are?  I didn’t think so.  So why expect that of woman you are pursuing?  Just a little food for thought….  There I go digressing…

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Would you believe there are women out here that are actually begging men to stay with them? And accepting CRUMBS?! They will be in a relationship with a man who CLEARLY does not have the same strong feelings for them and think they can fuck them, feed them, and force them into the relationship they want. Talk about poster women for low self esteem! And they are fucking it up for the rest of us who actually have standards and expectations.

 

There comes a point when older seasoned 30+ women have to have a heart to heart with their inner younger 20+ college woman and have a meeting of the minds.  While I know I will not ever have the experience of my college sweetheart at this stage of my life due to circumstances, baggage, and life I do know that I have experienced what it feels like to have pure love, support, real honesty that isn’t a mask for some bullshit.  I also know that in life you will have to make a certain amount of concessions but that does not mean you have to dishonor who you are and compromise your values.

In order to have true love you do not have to compromise what is important to you.  Or make some allowances for some bullshit because a man is “honest” about his situation.  Don’t let the honesty blind you to the reality of what he is actually saying and the situation.  Just because a man is “HONEST” does not mean he isn’t still full of shit.  And please don’t get me wrong.  This is not a bitter woman rant.  But I want to make sure you don’t fall into the seduction of honesty where you become blinded by the reality and the man’s actions.  That’s what really tells you the truth, his ACTIONS!  If his words and actions aren’t matching up… well there you have it!  That’s your answer.

At the end of the day I find we are thrown tests to see if we are really ready to “trust” the process and have “faith” that what we are looking for is coming and the “patience” to wait for what is right.  I never want any of you to beg for a man to give you a chance.  Or even worse wait on a man to make up his mind that he is ready to pursue you wholeheartedly without any doubt.  Your needs and desires when it comes to dating are important to maintain.  I challenge you to dig deep within and find that untarnished, unmarked, open and optimistic young girl in you that had a clean slate and believed in love to reacquaint themselves with the woman you are today.  I believe the marriage of the two moments in time will give you a better perspective and understanding of you who you are today and lead you in the direction where you can be open, make concessions, but not compromise on what is important to you.

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Don’t fall into the seduction of honesty and are blinded by the reality and the man’s actions. That what really tells you the truth, his ACTIONS! If his words and actions aren’t matching up… well there you have it!

 

Sometimes walking away from a situation is harder than realizing the situation is not for you especially when your head and your heart are not in alignment.  It is really hard!  And deeply disappointing to realize who you thought someone was, is not at all who they really are.  You question if all of the things he said, the feelings he said he felt for you, was just a lie or an act.  You even question, how you allowed yourself to once again fall for the okie doke.  You think you had learned from past mistakes and can shift through the bullshit.  You even get mad at yourself for allowing yourself to be vulnerable and let your walls down.  It fucking SUCKS!!!!!  The road less traveled is not an easy one to take, especially after years and years of being disappointed.  Especially when you think you have met a man that is IT.  Walking away is so hard.  But you have to teach a man how to treat you.  And you also have to look at who he truly is not who you thought he was, what you wanted him to be, or the idea of how you thought the outcome would be.  Sometimes you have to walk away and be strong in the fact that if it is meant to be it will be.  If he is right for you he will return and be better than what you had already established or you will be open and cleared to meet the man who really is IT.  If you find yourself making concessions that is not honoring who you are or compromising the core of what you need.  You have to be willing to walk away.  And trust me, I know it isn’t easy.  Especially as you get older and have kissed a lot of frogs.  However, that’s when you pour yourself a cocktail, you confess to the reality of the situation, and you promise yourself you will not make concessions that compromise the core of who you are as a woman.  I’ll leave you with this.  My girlfriend once told me God does not come from a place of No.  He will answer you with one of three things:

  • Yes
  • Not now
  • I have something better for you….

If you truly have faith and allow yourself to trust the process and know what is for you is for you.  You will not have to make a bunch of concessions.  And my goodness, it will be worth the journey.

Monique K.Bradley

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Never Can Say Goodbye…

goodbye2 (1)Yes… it’s been weeks since my last post.  And I haven’t forgotten about my loyal readers and followers.  I am working on some game changing things.  You know my favorite saying Go Big or Go Home!  I promise it will be worth the wait!  Meanwhile Date On!  Be open… And love as though you have never been hurt….

The Act of Vulnerability

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I don’t have much to write about. What happens when you have built an audience who wants to hear all about your dating life and dating foolery and you reach a point when you have made a conscious decision not to share that information? We knew the day would come. I couldn’t be a Serial Dater forever folks!

I have to be completely honest.  I don’t have much to write about.  What happens when you have built an audience who wants to hear all about your dating life and dating foolery and you reach a point when you have made a conscious decision not to share that information?  We knew the day would come.  I couldn’t be a Serial Dater forever folks!  There comes a time when even a Serial Dater makes the conscious choice to no longer serial date or perhaps they meet someone with potential and want to hold that feeling close to them and keep it private just between the person and you.  I guess you can say its growth.  I guess you can say after two years of bringing you the full Tea on my dating life and relationship status… or lack thereof, I have finally reached a point where I am tapped out.  And don’t worry, that doesn’t mean I will no longer write.  And it is not a bad thing at all.  In the next few weeks this site will take a turn in a different direction… which is a great thing!  But what I can say is 2015 is taking a turn in a different direction and it feels good.  I am happy.  I recognize happiness is a conscious choice.  I made the decision to choose happiness years ago and it was the best decision I ever made.

The journey to get here was a long one.  If someone told me at the age of 25 I would experience all that I have gone through in the last few years I would have laughed at them.  And not just a “ha-ha” laugh.  But one of those guttural laughs that come from your core, where you are laughing so damn hard you can’t breathe.  If someone told me I would get married, and six months into the marriage discover it was a MAJOR mistake, go through a 1 ½ bitter divorce battle, and uproot my life.  I wouldn’t have believed it.  If someone would have told me in order to get to where I am today I would be shaken to the core, my life would be uprooted, and everything I  thought I wanted was indeed not even close to want I needed I would have literally passed out.

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And I went through the storm. And I survived it. And let me be very clear. It wasn’t fun; it wasn’t enlightening at the time. It fucking SUCKED! And I was not truly happy.

 

But now, years later I recognize that was all part of the journey I had to take to discover me.  To discover who I really was.  When I was in the midst of the storm it was painful, it was scary, and it was hurtful.  It did not feel safe.  I had no idea that at the end I would experience the rainbow after the storm.  But you see, in order for a rainbow to appear, you have to go through a storm.  An unexpected sun will shine and the rainbow will be created.  But that is impossible without the storm beforehand.

And I went through the storm.  And I survived it.  And let me be very clear.  It wasn’t fun; it wasn’t enlightening at the time.  It fucking SUCKED!  And I was not truly happy.  To the outside world I appeared to be happy.  I would get accolades about how “How well I was handling the divorce… How strong I am… How you have managed to get through this shit with dignity and grace.”  But when I got home and it was just me all by myself.  I couldn’t go five minutes without crying.  I would find myself balled up in a corner on the floor crying uncontrollably.   My only saving grace was I had to go to work and during those hours I had to keep it together and put on a great façade to the public.  But as soon as I would close the door to my car, the tears would fall uncontrollably.

I’m not exactly sure where I am going with this.  I guess I have spent the last 2 years writing this blog talking so much about my strength.  But for some reason, I feel the need to be completely transparent and let someone out there know my strength didn’t come easy and it didn’t happen overnight.  Perhaps there is someone out there who is in the midst of the storm and needs to read about how what it REALLY means to get through it.  And pretending that “I am every woman…” isn’t what that person needs to hear right now.  Perhaps it’s time to be transparent and be vulnerable and let someone know that the journey isn’t easy.  But you WILL get to your destination called happiness.

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When I was in the midst of the storm it was painful, it was scary, and it was hurtful. It did not feel safe. I had no idea that at the end I would experience the rainbow after the storm. But you see, in order for a rainbow to appear, you have to go through a storm.

 

And once you get to that destination, there comes a point where you believe you are truly okay.  You have made it.  You even have you “PR” spin on what to tell people about your failed marriage or relationship.  Your “3 minute elevator” chat… The “long story short” version.  And let me tell you.  I perfected all of those things.  So much that I recently realized I spent so much time healing and so much time protecting my heart from getting broken again, that it had been a long time since I allowed myself to be vulnerable.  And no, it had nothing to do with not being over the ex.  That ship sailed years ago and I was able to bring myself the closure I needed to end the book.  I wish him nothing but the best and I reached the feeling of indifference years ago.  And if you are a loyal reader to this blog you know my biggest goal in life is to never take a wrong turn to Bitterville or a detour to Cynicism.  In all of my effort to stay the right course on my journey, I forgot one important thing as you open yourself up to love again… Vulnerability.  Allowing yourself to open your heart and let love in is something that can pretty fucking scary after being hurt or years of disappointment.  And it doesn’t mean you are not open to the possibility, but you also have to be open to the gamble of allowing your heart to be open to receive love.  I have no idea where Vulnerability got a bad rap.  Or why some women think that being “strong” means not being Vulnerable.  Especially a lot of us sistahs.  But it is the total opposite.  Interestingly enough for a lot of us it might be a subconscious defense mechanism.  However, I believe the very last piece of my healing journey, the last hill I had to climb was to finally allow myself to be vulnerable and not wear the mask of strength to hide the fear of pain.

Monique K.Bradley

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I’ve Fallen…

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With the holiday season comes a lot of parties, mixers, and over all hanging out to close out the year. And you know how I have a severe case of FOMO (fear of missing out), so the holidays are very dangerous for someone with my condition.

Happy New Year! I made it through the holidays unscathed and feeling really good.   I know it’s been a while since I have posted.  But I’m baaaaaaacccckkkk!!!!  I must admit, I have missed you guys!  And a part of me feels like I have left you hanging for far too long.  But hey, a sista needed a break and some time to regroup and refresh.  And as I have always said, I am not going to write a bunch of bullshit just to fill time.  I want to make sure I am bringing you all things worthy of reading.

With the holiday season comes a lot of parties, mixers, and over all hanging out to close out the year.  And you know how I have a severe case of FOMO (fear of missing out), so the holidays are very dangerous for someone with my condition.  In my own defense there were a few events/parties I missed out on.  Okay, maybe just one… but I’m really trying to get better with that in the New Year.

Prior to making that semi-resolution I found myself double and sometimes tripled booked some evenings during the holiday.  It’s LA and unlike most areas of the country where you are fighting the snow and freezing cold temperature.  Here in LA we are still rocking open toed booties and we complain when the temperature hits 50 degrees.  So it makes it easy for hanging out during the holidays.

One Saturday in particular, I was exhausted but had already committed to going to a two different holiday parties.  And one thing about me, when I give you my word, my word is Bon.  One Holiday party was at a friend of mine and his wife’s house.  It was in the hills and very grown and sexy.  It was my close circle of friends.  There was laughter, great food, great ambiance, and plenty of eggnog that I couldn’t drink because I knew I had to make it to another party later that evening.  Just as I was finally settling in, it was time for me to leave.  Although I was really enjoying myself I still decided to head out to the other party which was a birthday party for a friend of a friend.  I didn’t know any of the people that were going to be there outside of my mentor and her friend that I had just met when we went to a Pilates class together.  Her friend mentioned she was having a birthday/holiday party.  She also said that she never has enough women there because her husband always invites more of his friends.  Naturally my ears perked up.  A party with more men than women?  That is unheard of; I was thinking perhaps God was sending me an early Christmas gift.  With that motivation I left the party I was already at having a great time to high tail my ass to Pasadena.  After all, it is good to step outside of your comfort zone.  Although deep down inside, I really wanted to stay where I was with my close group of friends but I had to practice what I preach.  Lots of times you get stuck in your comfort zone and do not venture out to see what else is out there.

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A party with more men than women? That is unheard of; I was thinking perhaps God was sending me an early Christmas gift.

After a thirty minute drive I found myself walking into a full on house party, complete with a DJ and a full crowd of people on the dance floor in the living room.  There is nothing more awkward than walking into a party late and where you know absolutely no one there.  But I was feeling real good.  My hair was on point, I had on a killer little black dress, and I had finally found the perfect shade of red lip gloss for the holiday season.  You couldn’t tell me I wasn’t the shit at the moment.  You know those times when you just feel really good about yourself.  I’m not being arrogant but I was just having one of those moments.  Even if no one else saw it, I felt it.

I went into the kitchen to drop off my bottle of wine and was scanning the room for my mentor or her friend throwing the party.  The house was quite big.  Then I finally spotted the birthday girl.  I was so relieved to see her.  She walked towards me, and I lifted my hand up to wave at her.  Just as I opened my lips to say “Hey girl” was when I felt gravity leave from below me.  I didn’t realize she had a sunken in living room and there was a step.  It happened in slow motion, my feet literally slipped from below me and my black ass fell!!!  It wasn’t a trip.  It was a full on “bust yo’ ass” fall to the ground.  And I am 5’8 and my brand new heeled booties had me standing at a good 6’1.  And it wasn’t a graceful fall.  As I was falling I found myself reaching to grab the birthday girl and almost brought her down with me!  It was one of the moments when I swear the music screeched to a halt and there was silence.  Once I finally hit the carpet with a loud crash.  I looked up and saw the birthday girl shake her head in disbelief at me, and a few other members of the party looking over like, “Is he okay?  Who is that?  Damn!”  I didn’t know what to do.  But like I always say, it’s not about how you fall it’s about how you get back up.  So I hopped up and tried to play it off, “I’m here!”  At that moment I felt a tap on my shoulder and there was my mentor with her husband (whom I had never met before… what a great first impression.. Oh God!).  They were on the dance floor and witnessed the whole thing!  I was mortified.  I am a klutz.  I always have been inclined to trip over my own size 11 feet.  But it had been a while since this had happened.

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It happened in slow motion, my feet literally slipped from below me and my black ass fell!!! It wasn’t a trip. It was a full on “bust yo’ ass” fall to the ground.

My mentor:  Are you okay?

Me:  Well, I’m here!  (I was still trying to play it off and laugh it off).

My mentor:  this is my husband.

Mentor’s husband:  Nice to meet you.  I’ve heard a lot of great things about you.

(I couldn’t’ tell if he was trying to clown me or not)

Me:  Thanks!  Nice to meet you too.  If you two will excuse me, I need to find the ladies room. 

My mentor pointed me in the direction of the ladies room.  And I slowly walked up the step I hadn’t even noticed before.  I tried to ignore the pain in my knee from the fall.  The last thing I needed was to not only be the dumb ass who busted my ass in the middle of the dance floor. But to add to the resume I had to limp out would have really sent me over the edge.  I went to the ladies room and gather myself together.  How in the hell could I play this off?  It’s one thing if this happened with my close friends.  We could all have a good laugh.  Suddenly the confidence I felt when I walked into the party was a mere fourth of what it was.  I looked at myself in the mirror and started laughing.  What else could I do but laugh?  I also made the executive decision to hightail my ass out of the party.  After all, I had no idea how I was going to be able to play that off.  And I certainly didn’t want to have to explain myself all night and try to play off the fact that I had fallen and busted my ass in the middle of the party.  I walked out of the bathroom and snuck out of the house.  I made sure to look down the whole time to ensure there weren’t any hidden steps lurking around the corner.

I sent a text to my mentor:

Girl I snuck out.  I can’t believe I fell.  Let’s connect in the new year! 

She responded:

I’m so sorry that happened to you.  But I wish you would have stayed. 

I got in my car and went right back to the party with my close friends.  I was welcomed back with open arms and laughter when I told them what happened.  I sat down relaxed and had the glass of egg nog I wanted to have in the beginning of the evening.

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When you are single it is easy to find yourself constantly searching for that someone or something that you can miss out on what is right in front of you waiting for you to just take the time to stop and notice it. And it took me falling to realize, I need to sit my ass down somewhere and just breathe and take a damn break. And that’s exactly what I did during the rest of the holiday.

When I got home that night I realized that my FOMO (fear of missing out) condition had gotten out of control.  Why didn’t I just stay put where I was and enjoy the evening instead of leaving to go to the other party in the first place?!  It took me falling and busting my ass to realize that while you should be open, explore new things, and step out of your comfort zone, there also comes a point when you need to just breathe and take life in.  When you are single it is easy to find yourself constantly searching for that someone or something that you can miss out on what is right in front of you, waiting for you to just take the time to stop and notice it.  Between work, networking, friends, family, and passion projects you can find yourself just on the go and doing THE most.  And it took me falling to realize, I need to sit my ass down somewhere and just breathe and take a damn break.  And that’s exactly what I did during the rest of the holiday.  I relaxed, regrouped and realized that what is right for me will come when it is time.  And more than likely it is going to come from somewhere I least expect in a package that I never thought it would be in.  But I have made the conscious choice to slow down and finally treat my FOMO.  After all FOMO is really just another way of saying you’re always looking for something/someone bigger and better.  And there comes a point in life where you have to recognize what you need is right there if you take the time to actually see it.  I will not go through 2015 with any Fears, including the fear of missing out.  Instead I will go into this New Year with Faith to know that what is for me is for me and patience to wait for what is right without fear.  And finally the wisdom to always look down before I walk!  Cheers to 2015!

Monique K.Bradley

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New Posts Coming In January!!!

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Wishing you a wonderful Holiday Season and a Happy New Year! New posts coming in January!

 

One Single Warning

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It’s the most wonderful time of the year! The Holiday season… The time to drink and be merry. It’s also happens to be my favorite time of the year. It is also that time of year for members of Singledom to beware!

It’s the most wonderful time of the year!  The Holiday season… The time to drink and be merry.  It’s also happens to be my favorite time of the year.  It is also that time of year for members of Singledom to beware!

My feeling of overall contentment and happiness started to became evident three weeks ago when one of my nearest and dearest college friends came to LA with his beautiful wife and adorable baby.  So “The Fam” as we call it (my closest inner circle of friends dating back to our college years) got together for a night on the town.  Being the sap I am I wanted to get a chance to see their baby as well as my other friend and his wife who had just given birth to a newborn.  And what can I say… I am a sucker for adorable babies.  It is so fulfilling to see my friends with their children.  So I went to an impromptu Sip-N-See.  Right before we headed out to Nic’s in Beverly Hills all the ladies got together to take a picture.  As we were taking the picture I noticed something very interesting.  While my other girlfriends were holding their adorable babies, I was holding a wine glass with Sauvignon Blanc.  And I literally laughed out loud.  I was really okay with it.

Then last week I came down with the worse Flu.  I was bedridden.  Last year when I got sick I lamented the fact that I was single and had to go to the store to pick up my meds and chicken noodle soup myself.  This year, I decided to reach out and say I need some help.  My various girlfriends brought me soup, tea, honey, meds and anything I needed they were there.  I wasn’t afraid to reach out and say, “I need to be taken care of!”

Then finally for the first year ever, I spent Thanksgiving here in LA.  I made a conscious choice to put me and my relaxation first rather than braving it through the crazy ass airports and the cold ass snow of the East coast.  Typically I spend the holidays doing so much travel between the two coasts by the time January comes and everyone else is feeling refreshed and renewed.  My ass is exhausted and grouchy!  Luckily my family understood.  After all, I will see them in a few weeks for Christmas.  And instead of dreading the trip back home I am actually looking forward to it.  I spent Thanksgiving with my girlfriend and her fiance and then spent the rest of the Holiday in my own home, watching Netflix, hanging out with friends, and using Blackout Friday to decorate my house for Christmas.  It was awesome!  I felt so grown and so liberated to spend the Holidays on my own terms.

I realized how wonderful it is to be single.  I can go and see my friends’ children, love on them, and then come home to peace and quiet, I can make the decision to come and go as I please.  I can spend the Holidays the way I want to.  When you think about it, being single is really a small moment in time when you look at the grand scheme of things.  And I am finally at a point when I am enjoying it.  There will come a time in my life when I will transition to out of Singledom and be a part of a “we” and have my own little babies running around.  But right now, I am enjoying my “Me” moment in time.  I find it liberating.

It seems now that I am in this place of pure contentment I am noticing how the Holidays have a way of really fucking with single folks.  If you are not armed and prepared or if you are having a melancholy single moment (which we all have) you can find yourself buying into the hype and become depressed over the Holidays.  And it is my due diligence to make sure my loyal readers do not become victim to the Single bashing/bullshit that comes with the Holiday season.  So with that you have been warned.  If you are not prepared you can subconsciously fall victim to the foolery of believing that being single during the Holiday season is a bad thing instead of embracing it.  Here is my Holiday warning list for my other members of Singledom:

 

Beware of the EHarmony, Match.com, Black People Meet, J Date, and all the other online dating marketing ploys.

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Beware of the EHarmony, Match.com, Black People Meet, J Date, and all the other online dating marketing ploys.

You’ll notice this is the time of year where the online dating commercials are in heavy rotation.  They offer free month trials.  They show happy couples dancing around with their wedding dates in small print.  Match.com’s latest commercials are a killer for us single folks!  This new ad campaign has a man who pretty much harasses single people in the street leading them to believe that if they do not sign up for match.com they will be doomed for the single life forever.  Get the fuck out of here!  If you happen to enjoy online dating, great for you.  I have plenty of friends who have met their significant other through this method of dating.  And I also believe you should be open to trying new things.  However, if that’s not your thing, you should not feel bad about it.  Or if you have tried online dating and it didn’t work for you these commercials can have you feeling like you are a loser.  “Why did it work for them, not me… What’s wrong with me!”  The devil is a liar!

Beware of those stupid ass holiday movies where women are desperate to have dates to weddings, family gatherings, etc. and pay men to pose as their boyfriend and.or fiance.

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Beware of those stupid ass holiday movies where a woman are desperate to have dates to weddings, family gatherings, etc. and pay men to pose as their boyfriend and.or fiancé.

 

I never understood the purpose of those movies.  It usual has the protagonist who is success, smart, gorgeous, but just can’t find a date to their sister’s wedding and they decide to pay off a man to pose as their date.  This perpetuates the idea that showing up to a family function single and by yourself is a bad thing.  Get the fuck out of here.  As we know, and as I say in almost every single post, meeting men is not hard.  There is no need to buy into that desperation.  And furthermore, is showing up to a family gathering as a confident single person really that damn bad?!  Ummmm… hell no.

 

Beware of the random text messages from Ghosts of Dates Past…

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Beware of the random text messages from Ghosts of Dates Past…

We have all experienced it.  The random text messages from a guy you went out with months ago, or an asshole ex boyfriend, or just some random.  Back in the day you would get what was obviously a group text that wasn’t personalized.  But these fools have gotten hip to the game and at least add your name to the end of that random:

Happy Thanksgiving…. Merry Christmas.

 Or some of them really personalize it.  I got a text from a random guy I went out years ago on Thanksgiving.  I was shocked.

Thinking of you here and there.  Hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

My response…

Thank you.  Same to you.

Short, sweet, simple and to the point.  It left no room for him to go any further.  Don’t fall victim to the random text of men who have already showed their asses or haven’t proven themselves to be worthy of your time.  A random text message from a man who hasn’t bothered to reach out to you in months?  Ummmm…. I don’t think so.  There are 365 days in a year.  These calls and/or texts typically come when you’re feeling a little vulnerable.  And it’s easy to engage n the foolery.  But when a man has shown you who he really is.  You must believe him.  Do not fall into the trap of who he used to be, what you want him to be, or what you thought he was.  Go with his actions.  A random phone call/text on a Holiday when a man has been missing in action for months.  Well…. The writing is pretty much on the wall.

 

Beware of the fast forward thinking…. Stay in the present moment

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Beware of the fast forward thinking…. Stay in the present moment

It is easy to start fast forwarding to New Year’s Eve and Valentine’s Day and thinking about the possibility of being alone.  Trust me, I have been there.  As folks are making their New Year’s Eve plans you are suddenly aware that you could possibly be spending it single.  Or you think about spending yet another Valentine’s Day where cupid’s arrow took a detour and missed your heart.  IT’s okay and normal to have those human moments.  But try to live in the moment.  Today is December 1st.  A lot can happen in the next 30-45 days.  IF you lament on something that hasn’t happened you could miss the beauty of what is happening right in front of your eyes.  Trust me, I have been famous for fast forward thinking and missing out in the present moment.  But once you allow yourself to live in the moment you will find hidden gems you never noticed before.

 

Beware of the well meaning folks who will ask you about your love life…

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Beware of the well meaning folks who will ask you about your love life…

If you are a loyal reader to my blog, you know this used to drive me nuts!  I used to say the only time it is acceptable for someone to ask me:

So are you seeing anyone special… DO you have a boyfriend… Are you dating anyone

Is if it is followed by:

If not, I have a wonderful man I woud like you to meet.

I now recognize my annoyance of this question was due to my own insecurities about being single.  It’s actually an acceptable question to ask.  But it has taken me many years to recognize that and be in a place where I no longer want to haul off and smack someone for asking the question.  However, I suggest you have the Single’s version of the 2 minute elevator talk.  Have your one liner answer ready and available.  These comebacks have to be pleasant, non-irritable, and not leave any room for a follow up question.  It also has to give the appearance that you are open and not annoyed by the question.  Here are some of my favorites that have done the trick.

Question:  Do you have a boyfriend?

Answer:  Nope, but I’m accepting applications.

Question:  Are you dating anyone.

Answer:  I’m dating everyone

Question:  Are you seeing anyone special?

Answer:  Nope…  Specials is overrated…

Depending on how you feel or where you are in you single spectrum.  You can subtly change the subject.  Or you can blatantly ask someone if they know of anyone who you might vibe with.  Hell… it’s not a crime to let folks know you are single and open to meeting people.

Beware of feeling like you are the last woman standing…

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Beware of feeling like you are the last woman standing…

I have mastered the art of being the only single person at a dinner party.  It can be very easy to look around a room this time of year and feel like you are the last single woman on the planet.  Instead of feeling like an outsider, try to change you way of thinking about it.  Each of my friends who are married or coupled up in healthy, loving relationships, remind me that there is a such thing as happily ever after.  Being around people in healthy relationships is contagious.  It reminds you that what you are looking for in a mate is feasible and tangible.  As a matter of fact, I highly recommend you spend time around your favorite couples and soak in that great energy.

Last and not least, beware of feeling like being single is some type of disease…

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Last and not least, beware of feeling like being single is some type of disease…

What would happen if you actually started to enjoy this tie in your life?  What would happen if you recognized what a blessing it is to be able to spend time getting to know YOU and date YOU?  What if you recognized and acknowledged that you will NOT be single forever and there are great men out there who are actually looking for someone like YOU?  What if, you actually decided to spend this holiday in Singledom HAPPY and being okay with where you re in this present time?  Here’s the real deal, if you cannot enjoy being single and happy, how in the hell will you be able to enjoy being in a relationship?  IF you are not happy spending time with YOU how can you be happy with someone else.  Perhaps this is the time in your life where you really get to figure what make you happy and become whole so that when you meet your soul mate it is about two whole people coming together and building a life together.

At the end of the day, this Holiday could possibly be your last Holiday to be single so damn it,  enjoy it!

Monique K.Bradley

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